The little things i do, that remind me of little things back then.

October 5, 2009

Every time i’m spreading peanut butter or jam on a slice of bread, it reminds me of my Mother and an episode of Sesame Street. – There was a scene where a bunch of kids went on a picnic at some wide open green grass space. A young African-American little girl sat down and spread jam on her bread and made more sandwiches for her friends. My mother was watching this episode with me. She then said, “See Rina, look at that little girl. She’s younger than you and she can put jam on her bread all by herself. You’re already 12 years old and you can’t do it yourself.” – Ever since then i learnt to do it myself and am reminded of that moment every time i make myself a sandwich.

Every time i hold a paint brush in my hand, it reminds me of how cruel my brother was when we were kids. – When i was really young around 7 or 8 years old, i used to love brushing my face with water color paint brushes that you get for free in those Luna pencil color boxes.  I would brush it on my eyelids, around my mouth and cheeks. One day, my brother decided to tell me a lie that i thought was true until i was 13 years old. He saw me playing with the paint brush and said, “Eeee Rina, those hairs on the paint brush are actually from Pig hair! And you brush it on your face! Ew your face is no longer Halal!”. I cried as he ran around the house yelling “Rina’s face is not Halal! Rina’s face is not Halal!!!”. – So everytime i’m putting on my make up using my blusher…I tend to smile and at myself, while that memory echoes in my mind.

Every time I eat fish, i tell myself i’ve gain IQ points. – Again, like all little kids, you used to hate eating greens. I hated it. prolly still do. But, i also hated eating fish. There was one time when my mother said there was nothing else to cook for dinner aside vegeies and fried fish. I stuck my tounge out looking at the meal. My fother loves eating fish, he then told me…“Eat fish Rina. It makes you smart. Look at Abang, he has good grades, that’s why he’s eating fish. And look at me, I’m very very smart. That’s why i told your mother to cook fish. So you can eat, and you’ll be smart like me.” He looked at me while biting the head of a fried fish and gave me a cheeky smile. So i did. I ate fish. – So every time i eat it, I always feel as if i’ve gain my IQ points for the day. I love fried fish ever since then.

Ever time a friend would ask me out at the very last minute/hour while waking me from a nap, reminds me of the Twins. - The Twins, Sae and Farah and I used to live together every now and then. There was a time when i had to crash at their apartment for a month. and every other weekend, like every one else, i wake up late at noon. The girls tend to always wake me up and thoughtfully ask me out for a movie “Hi Ryn, sorry to wake you. Wanted to ask if you wanna come to KLCC with us and catch a movie?” I open my groggy eyes and sit up, looking at the both of them, already All dressed up with their shoes on and handbangs hung. “er..What time are you guys planning to go?” i ask confusingly at this picture. “Now, by 1pm.” They smiled. I look at the clock, and its 12:58pm. – We laugh at these memories everytime we go out now. They tell me their sorry and their excuse was “We didnt wanna disturb your nice sleep while we were getting ready.” Funny.

Every time i fry something it reminds me of Iin, and the Fire Department. – I know i’ve told this story before, but it never gets old. When Iin and I live in the same apartment during our college days, i normally fry myself nice deep fried nuggets and a bowl of rice. One unfortunate evening, i wake up from a late evening nap. Feeling groggy, i also felt hungry. So i decided to fry some nuggets. Being half awake, i simply poured the cooking oil into the pan and heated it up with the stove. The next thing i new, as i opend up the lid getting ready to pour the nuggets, Fire was blooming out from the frying pan. I stared at it for a good 5 seconds bangged on the door for my other housemate to get out of the shower. “Reena! get out!! I need to use the bathroom! we’ve got fire!!!” Iin who was in the living room said…“Ryn something is burning.” As she walked to the kitchen she said “Oh SHIT! Ryn what the hell???” I just shouted at her and said “IIn! Water water!!” She panicly did a few skipping of left and right, and ran to the other toilet and filled in a bucket of water. But by the time i she struggled to carry it to the kitchen i had already crashed into the other bathroom and threw the firery heaty dragons breath frying pan under the running shower. The three of us, Me holding a burnt cloth in one hand, Reena in a towel and shampoo in her hair, and Iin crouching with a bucket of water all stared at the pan from the door. – Honestly, i cant remember the last time i fried nuggets. That was probably it. Plus, some one called the fire department. Cause black smoke was coming out of our window.

Every time i brush my tongue after my teeth, reminds me of my primary school teacher who gave a speech bout brushing your tongue. - During the morning assembly, one time, my primary school teacher got up to the mic and started lecturing us about the importance of brushing your teeth. It had nothing do with and school news or event. It was such a random topic. She then started talking like a deaf person using her finger to point into her mouth showing us her wisdome tooth with one hand holding the mic struggling and saying “ya sthee tha par aht tha bagh ow yow tangh??? yah neeth tha bwar ith  ehwiday!!!” It was such a gross sight. She then stick her tongue out and said “Sthee tho whait staaph!! Ith germs!! Braath ith ehwiday!!!” then continued to talk like a normal person “OK kids??”. – I laugh at myself every time i do that looking myself at the mirror. I tend to talk to myself and see how weird i sound and look like.

There lots more stuff i do that reminds me of many of my life memories…but so far these are the common ones.

:) I need to find an aparment.


Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin 2009.

September 19, 2009

PA010162Hi guys. I know, its been awhile yeah? well, i havent really had the mood or certain time to rant/express/blog about stuff.

I’m in the middle of packing to head to Labuan tomorrow after morning prayers with my family. So thought I’d take this time to say all my Hari Raya wishes to everyone. Or anything Raya-ish theme related.

I love Hari Raya. I love being with my family and having a laugh. Even right now, i’m like multi-tasking doing packing my clothes, packing kuih raya, packing shoes, helping mum in the kitchen, typing this, makan some of my mums homemade noodles, typing this, chatting with my family and laughing non-stop, then typing this, then watching the football match, sms-ing people, typing this, etc etc etc.

Tomorrow is my nephew’s first experience attending the Aidilfitri morning prayers at the state Mosque. He’s really looking forward to it. I heard him counting the times washing his  hands during ambil air wuduk. Very cute. This year, is the first time that i’m wont be wearing a new Baju Kurung. Cutting my mum some slack for being our tailor ever year since i was born. She’s never got a chance to make more than one baju kurung for herslef ever cause she’s been so dedicated to make our Raya clothes. This year, i let my mum have her chance of  taking her time to make her own baju kurung. Plus, i’m happy with the amount that i have, specially tailored by her. :)

My dad always made this joke. well, its his yearly Raya joke. “Haih, Rina. I’m so not used to fasting for just 30 days. I’m used to fasting more than 3 or 6 months. Its wierd to have an early Aidilfitri.” He’s sarcastic smile breaks into a laugh. And i laugh along with him. he adds, “Padahal buka puasa pukul 6, muka sudah biru! hahaha!”

I tagged along with my Dad to the pasar dongongon to buy some fresh chicken and vegetables. Its the first time i’ve ever stepped foot in a fish/meat market after 15 years of dreading it. The smell wasnt that bad as i remembered it. I guess i was happy to be home and in the company of my dad. Plus, it was fun to watch my dad converse in Dusun with the sales lady. Awesome. had no idea he could speak Dusun.

I called up my brother  a few hours ago to tell him that tomorrow was gonna be hari raya. My sis in law passed the phone to him. After i told him the news, all he could reply in his groggy sleepy voice was… “Ehmph…ok. I have to work tomorrow. Happy raya…zzzzz”.

I’ve been gettin alot of wishes from all of my dear friends thru sms. Not that i dont want to reply. Not that i dont appreciate the sms. I really do. But i dont like sending mass sms’s to people. So what i’m saying is that, this post will hopefully make up for all the replies of Aidilfitri wishes.

I would like to wish all of my fellow muslim friends and family, a Happy beloved Aidilfitri. Sorry if i did any wrong doings, or offended you in any way, or anything in the negetive area that affected your feelings, emotionally, physically, mentally, all of it. Forgive me. Prolly my brain was not making sense at those times. And, in return, i forgive who-ever stepped on my tail or woke me up at the wrong side of the bed. May you all have a wonderfull celebration, a blessed holiday, and safe trip home. Hopefully i’ll get to see all in KK or in KL. Selamat Hari Raya guys.

Peace.


Relax, I love you ja bah.

August 26, 2009

It’s nice to read a mail and below it, it signs off with “I love you, and I meant it :) “.

It’s amazing to hear it when on your first date, he tells you “sebenarnya saya suka dan minat banget dengan kamu” and realized you’ve been together for two years now, he’s been saying “I love you. I always have and will be” on a daily basis.

It cracks you up or at least put a faint smile on your face when a friend begs for a favor you sort of reluctant to do, still you do it anyway. “I owe you so much! I love you!”

It makes you pause right before youre about to make your point in the middle of an arguement, you cant continue, cause somehow you feel an invisible hug, when youre still angry. “Fuck you, look i love you man, but this is shit!”

It makes you take a step back to figure out either you really did make a mistake in life as your best friend tells you the brutal truth at your face. “I love you and all, but face it…you’re fat.”

It makes you think youre really amazing because you sang the correct lyrics through out the whole concert, and he was thankful, and screamed “You guys were amazing tonight!! Thanks for coming to the show we love you!”

But i think…

The real “I love you” moments, or confrontation situations, are the ones where family barely say it to each other. realistc people who arent dramatic towards their family members, but dramatic with their friends and lovers.

Like proposing to marry your loved one just by showing her a ring in a box without saying a word, and all she did was cry, smile, and put the ring on her finger.

Every time i salaam any of my family members. I bow my head and kiss their palms, i say to them in my heart with all my emotions…I love you. But i never say it out loud. We, never say it out loud. We never say it to each other. well only prolly during sarcastic moments. But to meant it, at proper moment. Never. And we somehow love it that way. It shows how much we all know without having to say it. We are aware of how much we all love each other. basically we wud prolly easily tear up if we said it to one another.  If we did, my mum would prolly say…“Bah! Sudah. sudah. mo makan sudah kita nih!” while holding back her tears.  My sister would make an excuse saying “Shit, my mascara isnt waterproof.” My brother would say “What are you looking at Rina. Look somewhere else. …Go away!”. And i’d smile. My father would be good at being Copperfield and vanish to the bathroom before anyone would notice. And me, all i would do is look down….and count the tiles on the floor.

But like i said, saying I love you, or being told that you are loved…gives a special feeling. It makes you feel worthy for being there in the first place. For being a friend. Being a lover, partner, Parent, brother, sister, relative anything. It makes you be happily selfish for a good reason.

I just wanna say, I love you all. I do. Maybe i’m in a I love you momment. Or tertinggal hari Valentines day. But at least you know i love you. All of you who mean alot to me.

I love you, and i mean it. :)


What I will truly miss, working in V.A. Studios.

July 28, 2009

- Arriving work at 10am when your supposed to start at 9am and able to leave by 6pm.

- Listening to Syarimal’s daily Star Wars quotes.

- Lan’s hillarious-infectious-Hyena laughter.

- Cycling to work every now and then with my Foldable Bike.

- Accidentally over-hearing Kak Gee (The Admin Lady) scolding her sons reminding them to pick up the laundry, no football in the afternoon, and force her eldest son to come home directly after school hours. She does this on a Daily basis. And her constant habit of repeating the words “…That’s Means….” during phone conversations. THAT MEANS la…. not THAT’S MEANS..

- Nabil’s ‘Good Morning!’ routine to everyone.

- Having the tv on Cartoon Network channel while working.

- No Puak-Puak problems. Everyone is muhibbah. All 4 departments including the Admin people and the Receptionist lady till the Office Driver, Makcik Cleaner, and the Handy man.

- Buying chips from Maya’s cubicle station.

- Listening to Elsy get angry and cursing in Iban under her breath.

- Bungkus nasi dari gerai Mak Su, and eating with the girls in the Flash-Sumo Department. Comparing each others price of Meals. Cause Mak Su’s menu price is unconsistent.

- The Receiptionist lady, Kak Zizah yelling… “GUYS MOVE YOUR CAR!!!” every 430pm.

- Watching the boys making fools of themselves playing Futsal every Wednesday evening after 6pm.

- Hearing Adam yelling, “NAH BAGUS!!!” whenever he gets a sialan kind of Scene.

- Julie motivating animators to never give up, and fight for their rights. She should be a motivational speaker. Syarimal is a lucky man. hahaha!

- Making/Found the Rubiks Cube Fan Club influencing Kelvin, Syarimal, Gaban, E, Chick, Siao Ping, and Vincent. Semua beli Rubiks cube~ muahahahahah!!!

- Mei Chin’s stealth and undetectable appearance behind or beside me in seconds. Calling me Sepet, to show how non-racist she is to the world. hahahah!!! lucu la Mei Chin.

- Mike (The Head leader for Sumo Deparment) fighting againts Wan using PsP 5 cubicles away from each other causing the whole department to pay attention to their PsP game fights.

- Abang Aie’s (creator of Aku Hidup Dalam Blues) old school Otai comic jokes. And all his wise advice to all the junior animators. An awsome artist to look up to and learn from. Always willing to teach people how to improve their colouring and drawing skills.

- Seeing Jess running around the studio looking for Animators to finish the Impossible last minute giveaway scenes.

- Zaihan’s self mumbling while working.

- George’s daily Superman T-shirts. I wear my Wonder Woman shirt occasionaly to match his Superman mood.

- Yokelai’s habit of Flooding my cubicle walls with ridiculous drawings of herself on yellow posteds.

- Mario and Bob Azmi’s sms ringtone that shouts..”Saya Kencing Malam!”

- Making Coffee 3 times a day in the pantry.

- Playing with Jinggo’s Skateboard and riding it from one department to the other.

- Riding my Bicycle from one department to the other.

- Jihan’s occasional Poking habits, reckless driving.

- Ilah’s High-octave pitch in talking as a normal person. And her ability to scare people by not talking at all. (the fear of hearing her yell higher than her original high pitch voice.)

- Able to come back from lunch an hour late. And no one gives a shit bout it.

- Able to sleep half the day in my chair when i didnt have enough sleep.

- Kelvin’s massive toy collection.

- Plying guitar whereever, and whenever i can through out working hours. Asal kerja siap.

Most of all its the people i work with and the cool relax eviroment. Too much to mention here. But i do know i wont miss the sialan Producer who’s such bitch with no brains.

only 2 more days left, and i’m heading back to KK. Hey, i wont say goodbye to animation just yet. Who knows? i might come back to work on the new project next year. Till then, i will miss working in V.A. Studios.

Thanks you guys. You guys Rock. :)