Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin 2009.

Hi guys. I know, its been awhile yeah? well, i havent really had the mood or certain time to rant/express/blog about stuff.

I’m in the middle of packing to head to Labuan tomorrow after morning prayers with my family. So thought I’d take this time to say all my Hari Raya wishes to everyone. Or anything Raya-ish theme related.

I love Hari Raya. I love being with my family and having a laugh. Even right now, i’m like multi-tasking doing packing my clothes, packing kuih raya, packing shoes, helping mum in the kitchen, typing this, makan some of my mums homemade noodles, typing this, chatting with my family and laughing non-stop, then typing this, then watching the football match, sms-ing people, typing this, etc etc etc.

Tomorrow is my nephew’s first experience attending the Aidilfitri morning prayers at the state Mosque. He’s really looking forward to it. I heard him counting the times washing his  hands during ambil air wuduk. Very cute. This year, is the first time that i’m wont be wearing a new Baju Kurung. Cutting my mum some slack for being our tailor ever year since i was born. She’s never got a chance to make more than one baju kurung for herslef ever cause she’s been so dedicated to make our Raya clothes. This year, i let my mum have her chance of  taking her time to make her own baju kurung. Plus, i’m happy with the amount that i have, specially tailored by her.

My dad always made this joke. well, its his yearly Raya joke. “Haih, Rina. I’m so not used to fasting for just 30 days. I’m used to fasting more than 3 or 6 months. Its wierd to have an early Aidilfitri.” He’s sarcastic smile breaks into a laugh. And i laugh along with him. he adds, “Padahal buka puasa pukul 6, muka sudah biru! hahaha!”

I tagged along with my Dad to the pasar dongongon to buy some fresh chicken and vegetables. Its the first time i’ve ever stepped foot in a fish/meat market after 15 years of dreading it. The smell wasnt that bad as i remembered it. I guess i was happy to be home and in the company of my dad. Plus, it was fun to watch my dad converse in Dusun with the sales lady. Awesome. had no idea he could speak Dusun.

I called up my brother  a few hours ago to tell him that tomorrow was gonna be hari raya. My sis in law passed the phone to him. After i told him the news, all he could reply in his groggy sleepy voice was… “Ehmph…ok. I have to work tomorrow. Happy raya…zzzzz”.

I’ve been gettin alot of wishes from all of my dear friends thru sms. Not that i dont want to reply. Not that i dont appreciate the sms. I really do. But i dont like sending mass sms’s to people. So what i’m saying is that, this post will hopefully make up for all the replies of Aidilfitri wishes.

I would like to wish all of my fellow muslim friends and family, a Happy beloved Aidilfitri. Sorry if i did any wrong doings, or offended you in any way, or anything in the negetive area that affected your feelings, emotionally, physically, mentally, all of it. Forgive me. Prolly my brain was not making sense at those times. And, in return, i forgive who-ever stepped on my tail or woke me up at the wrong side of the bed. May you all have a wonderfull celebration, a blessed holiday, and safe trip home. Hopefully i’ll get to see all in KK or in KL. Selamat Hari Raya guys.

Peace.

Relax, I love you ja bah.

It’s nice to read a mail and below it, it signs off with “I love you, and I meant it “.

It’s amazing to hear it when on your first date, he tells you “sebenarnya saya suka dan minat banget dengan kamu” and realized you’ve been together for two years now, he’s been saying “I love you. I always have and will be” on a daily basis.

It cracks you up or at least put a faint smile on your face when a friend begs for a favor you sort of reluctant to do, still you do it anyway. “I owe you so much! I love you!”

It makes you pause right before youre about to make your point in the middle of an arguement, you cant continue, cause somehow you feel an invisible hug, when youre still angry. “Fuck you, look i love you man, but this is shit!”

It makes you take a step back to figure out either you really did make a mistake in life as your best friend tells you the brutal truth at your face. “I love you and all, but face it…you’re fat.”

It makes you think youre really amazing because you sang the correct lyrics through out the whole concert, and he was thankful, and screamed “You guys were amazing tonight!! Thanks for coming to the show we love you!”

But i think…

The real “I love you” moments, or confrontation situations, are the ones where family barely say it to each other. realistc people who arent dramatic towards their family members, but dramatic with their friends and lovers.

Like proposing to marry your loved one just by showing her a ring in a box without saying a word, and all she did was cry, smile, and put the ring on her finger.

Every time i salaam any of my family members. I bow my head and kiss their palms, i say to them in my heart with all my emotions…I love you. But i never say it out loud. We, never say it out loud. We never say it to each other. well only prolly during sarcastic moments. But to meant it, at proper moment. Never. And we somehow love it that way. It shows how much we all know without having to say it. We are aware of how much we all love each other. basically we wud prolly easily tear up if we said it to one another.  If we did, my mum would prolly say…“Bah! Sudah. sudah. mo makan sudah kita nih!” while holding back her tears.  My sister would make an excuse saying “Shit, my mascara isnt waterproof.” My brother would say “What are you looking at Rina. Look somewhere else. …Go away!”. And i’d smile. My father would be good at being Copperfield and vanish to the bathroom before anyone would notice. And me, all i would do is look down….and count the tiles on the floor.

But like i said, saying I love you, or being told that you are loved…gives a special feeling. It makes you feel worthy for being there in the first place. For being a friend. Being a lover, partner, Parent, brother, sister, relative anything. It makes you be happily selfish for a good reason.

I just wanna say, I love you all. I do. Maybe i’m in a I love you momment. Or tertinggal hari Valentines day. But at least you know i love you. All of you who mean alot to me.

I love you, and i mean it.

What I will truly miss, working in V.A. Studios.

- Arriving work at 10am when your supposed to start at 9am and able to leave by 6pm.

- Listening to Syarimal’s daily Star Wars quotes.

- Lan’s hillarious-infectious-Hyena laughter.

- Cycling to work every now and then with my Foldable Bike.

- Accidentally over-hearing Kak Gee (The Admin Lady) scolding her sons reminding them to pick up the laundry, no football in the afternoon, and force her eldest son to come home directly after school hours. She does this on a Daily basis. And her constant habit of repeating the words “…That’s Means….” during phone conversations. THAT MEANS la…. not THAT’S MEANS..

- Nabil’s ‘Good Morning!’ routine to everyone.

- Having the tv on Cartoon Network channel while working.

- No Puak-Puak problems. Everyone is muhibbah. All 4 departments including the Admin people and the Receptionist lady till the Office Driver, Makcik Cleaner, and the Handy man.

- Buying chips from Maya’s cubicle station.

- Listening to Elsy get angry and cursing in Iban under her breath.

- Bungkus nasi dari gerai Mak Su, and eating with the girls in the Flash-Sumo Department. Comparing each others price of Meals. Cause Mak Su’s menu price is unconsistent.

- The Receiptionist lady, Kak Zizah yelling… “GUYS MOVE YOUR CAR!!!” every 430pm.

- Watching the boys making fools of themselves playing Futsal every Wednesday evening after 6pm.

- Hearing Adam yelling, “NAH BAGUS!!!” whenever he gets a sialan kind of Scene.

- Julie motivating animators to never give up, and fight for their rights. She should be a motivational speaker. Syarimal is a lucky man. hahaha!

- Making/Found the Rubiks Cube Fan Club influencing Kelvin, Syarimal, Gaban, E, Chick, Siao Ping, and Vincent. Semua beli Rubiks cube~ muahahahahah!!!

- Mei Chin’s stealth and undetectable appearance behind or beside me in seconds. Calling me Sepet, to show how non-racist she is to the world. hahahah!!! lucu la Mei Chin.

- Mike (The Head leader for Sumo Deparment) fighting againts Wan using PsP 5 cubicles away from each other causing the whole department to pay attention to their PsP game fights.

- Abang Aie’s (creator of Aku Hidup Dalam Blues) old school Otai comic jokes. And all his wise advice to all the junior animators. An awsome artist to look up to and learn from. Always willing to teach people how to improve their colouring and drawing skills.

- Seeing Jess running around the studio looking for Animators to finish the Impossible last minute giveaway scenes.

- Zaihan’s self mumbling while working.

- George’s daily Superman T-shirts. I wear my Wonder Woman shirt occasionaly to match his Superman mood.

- Yokelai’s habit of Flooding my cubicle walls with ridiculous drawings of herself on yellow posteds.

- Mario and Bob Azmi’s sms ringtone that shouts..”Saya Kencing Malam!”

- Making Coffee 3 times a day in the pantry.

- Playing with Jinggo’s Skateboard and riding it from one department to the other.

- Riding my Bicycle from one department to the other.

- Jihan’s occasional Poking habits, reckless driving.

- Ilah’s High-octave pitch in talking as a normal person. And her ability to scare people by not talking at all. (the fear of hearing her yell higher than her original high pitch voice.)

- Able to come back from lunch an hour late. And no one gives a shit bout it.

- Able to sleep half the day in my chair when i didnt have enough sleep.

- Kelvin’s massive toy collection.

- Plying guitar whereever, and whenever i can through out working hours. Asal kerja siap.

Most of all its the people i work with and the cool relax eviroment. Too much to mention here. But i do know i wont miss the sialan Producer who’s such bitch with no brains.

only 2 more days left, and i’m heading back to KK. Hey, i wont say goodbye to animation just yet. Who knows? i might come back to work on the new project next year. Till then, i will miss working in V.A. Studios.

Thanks you guys. You guys Rock.

Bulan Istimewa (Live @ Bentley Studios)

This is the only new song i got recorded during a live show.
I’m still in the process of recording new materials and stuff for the HOPEFULLY future EP.

you guys can check it out on my Facebook Fan Page.

Peace!
(baru balik dari studio…)